Yesterday's dinner with Naddy was far from the usual. Sometimes you arent sure if the feeling issit it,or its just simply playing with your mind.Well i dont think i should live in denial and told her everything and it felt right.finally i can lift up my head and walk down the pathway,again Tomorrow is monday,ive always been looking forward to it, just cant stand staying at home anymore.I wanna get out.Given a choice i dont just wanna move out, but far far away. Most people dont understand they take it like a -oh everyones goes through that thing/thats life. Seriously dude;you have no idea what im going through.Its way pass hell.

Personally ive always think that suicide is stupid,but recently ive changed my perception of it. If its the only way to end it all,guess i'll have to add it up to the list. I'd kill myself after ive love and be loved, and fuck(ed) a hottie HAHA. Thank god i still have my reasons to live =)

The first time,it happened too fast
The second time,i thought it would last
We all like it a little different

see ya folks.